It's already nearing mid-July and I have no idea where the first couple of weeks of the summer have gone. Being lost in day to day life makes it difficult to notice the time passing by. Nothing really noteworthy has happened; the main things are that we survived another year of chaotic fireworks last Monday and Tuesday, and for the past month the weather has been spiking up to uncomfortable heat waves then dipping back down into tolerable temperatures and humidity levels. Everything else is business as usual.

I miss the summers where the workday ending and the weekends starting meant it was time for fun. Covid-19 has really changed everything in ways I'd've never expected, and I don't think that I will ever have that kind of social life again. It's scary to think about, yet at the same time I've accepted it because there's nothing I can do to change it. I either risk making my long covid cognitive issues worse by getting it again, or I continue to stay home 24/7 and only leave for the necessities. The choice is easy, and so I stay home. There's a line spoken by Paulie from The Sopranos that I try to remember when things start to feel really bad:

Christopher Moltisanti: You ever feel like nothin' good was ever gonna happen to you?

Paulie Gualtieri: Yeah. And nothin' did. So what? I'm alive, I'm survivin'.

The Sopranos 1x08 - The Legend of Tennessee Moltisanti

TL;DR: Remember that every day above ground is a good day.